Sorry guys I’m just really fucked up and emotional as shit. I have no idea how I feel about anything and I just need to let out all of my thoughts so they don’t seem so hidden and pushed down deep inside of me. I don’t mean to seem so down in the dumps, I just have to let it out somewhere.
I wish you weren’t the only one I want. You’ve always been the only one. I couldn’t ever really talk to someone else, even flirting with someone else was hard, when we were together I didn’t even look at other women the way I look at you. There will be a replacement for you, you have always been a one and only kind of girl. I never had to justify loving you, I needed no reasons. I just loved you plain and simple. I didn’t need reasons or excuses because I loved you unconditionally and constantly. You meant the world to me, you still do. Everything you did and every choice you made, made me proud. I was proud to call you mine. I supported you through everything because I believed in your dreams. You always looked so beautiful to me, from the moment you woke up in the morning until you fell asleep that night I thought you looked so beautiful, I still do. Even when you slept you looked perfect. You’ll always be the one.
I wish I wasn’t the only one who’s life was a mess because of this whole situation. I would rather be miserable with you, than happy without you.
you will stumble upon
someone who will start
a fire in you that cannot die.
However, the saddest,
most awful truth
you will ever come to find––
is they are not always
with whom we spend our lives. "
“I’m gonna like this post so I can find it later.”
I keep throwing up. Fuck me.